Sara Bareilles – Gravity

I heard this song a few months ago on the radio, and I didn’t know the name of the song nor the singer. So I am left with a deep longing since.. Really,  I am not exaggerating.

This song gave me the chills. I literally pause when I heard this. The beautiful voice of the singer captivate me, and the lyrics is so beautiful, simple and honest..

“Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.”

This is the lyrics that really struck a chord in me. It stuck in my head ever since. I don’t know why? I can not say that I can relate to this lyrics.. I was not in love then and I am not in love now. But I have been in love.. and this song really reminds me of what it feels like to be in love. How it is liberating and frightening at the same time. How it makes you feel strong but yet vulnerable.

This song evoke those memories and make me remember..

It makes me miss being in love..

Love really is a wonderful thing..

I hope you enjoy the song and the lyrics like I do..

With Love. Diriku Pikiranku.

Sara Bareilles – Gravity


Something always brings me back to you.

It never takes too long.

No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone.


You hold me without touch.

You keep me without chains.

I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.


Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.

Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.

But you’re on to me and all over me.


You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.

When I thought that I was strong.

But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.


I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you’re everything I think I need here on the ground.

But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go.

The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down

You’re on to me, on to me, and all over…

Something always brings me back to you.

It never takes too long.


B.E. H.A.P.P.Y

Is it wrong in my age to just live in the moment and not think much about my future.. Coz I kinda enjoy it.. *wink  🙂

It’s not like I plan this to happen, I don’t program my self to be like this.. I spent most of my age hating comfort zone and always looking far ahead to where I want to be in the next 10-20 years. That was me.

But today, I’m like really enjoy looking around and focus much on my surrounding, friends, hobbies, and really just be ME in the present tense.. And not thinking much about ME in the future tense. I don’t know when this transformation happened and I kinda felt guilty sometimes.. Being my analytical self, I started to have questions.. Is this normal? For a person to change so much? Is it OK if I continue like this? Is this just like my way to justify my lack of passion and achievements? Is it because I’m running away from my problems? Because I’m afraid to chase my dreams?

I still don’t know the answers to all those questions swirling in my mind.. Cause the answer changes every second I think of it..



Not really.

It’s not like that.

Is that true?

Is that really how I feel or how I should feel?


At the end, I still haven’t came to a conclusion.. So, I think for now I’ll keep it simple and just do what makes me Happy at this very moment.. If sleeping makes me Happy, I’ll sleep all day.. If spending time with friends and writing makes me Happy, I’ll spend time doing just that.. No plans at all.. But I still gonna make time to think about this questions at least once a week, until I find the answer.. And I’ll pray everyday for GOD to eventually show me the right path to His Good Grace..

For now, I just want to BE HAPPY!  Cheers! *grin 😀

Things I’m Grateful for in My Life

Aku bersyukur pada Allah  SWT telah diberi kesempatan hidup di dunia, terlahir Islam, rahmat hidayah saat aku akil baligh, kesempatan mempelajari Al Quran, keteladanan Nabi Muhammad SAW, kepintaran, kesehatan, fisik yg sempurna, keluarga yang mencintai ku, rizki yg halal, dan segala berkah yang telah diberikan seumur hidupku. Allah SWT telah memberiku kehidupan dengan modal yang sangat cukup untuk selamat dunia dan akhirat. Sekarang semua tergantung aku untuk memanfaatkan dengan sebaik-baiknya segala modal yang diberikan-Nya untuk dapat digunakan di jalan Allah dan mengejar ridho-Nya

Aku bersyukur atas keluarga yg sempurna, Papa, Mama, dan Adek, yang mencintaiku dengan segala cara, memenuhi kebutuhan jasmani dan rohani ku tanpa cela, memberiku kesempatan untuk belajar apapun yg aku mau, memberiku keamanan dan ketentraman, senantiasa membela & mendukung ku tanpa ragu.

Aku bersyukur atas sahabat sejati yg telah dikirimkan-Nya. Yang senantiasa menyediakan waktu untuk ku. Selalu ada untuk aku. Aku percaya sahabat sejati adalah juga jodoh yang diberikan Tuhan. Aku bersyukur aku memiliki 1 orang yg aku dapat sungguh-sungguh sebut sebagai sahabat. My best friend, you know who you are. I sincerely thank you. I will forever try to be the best friend you deserve.

Aku bersyukur untuk atap di atas kepala ku, kamar kosan yang nyaman, tempat tidur yg empuk dan selimut tebal untuk menghangatkan di malam hari apalagi saat hujan deras, segala peralatan elektronik yang lengkap, mobil perusahaan yg dipinjamkan kepadaku, buku sebagai sarana ilmu, BB untuk berkomunikasi dan alat kerja, dan rumah keluarga yang senantiasa bisa menjadi tempat aku kembali apabila aku tidak mampu mandiri.

Aku bersyukur atas masa-masa SMP ku, tercebur di sekolah anak-anak borjuis Jakarta yang menilai orang lain hanya berdasarkan materi. Pengalaman tersebut, walaupun berat kala itu, menempa ku untuk menemukan jati diri ku, bahwa aku lebih dari sekedar seberapa banyak uang yang dimiliki orang tua ku, bahwa kepintaran dan semangat untuk melakukan yang terbaik adalah modal utama untuk bisa sukses di situasi seberat apapun. Berkat pengalaman itu, aku jadi percaya diri.

Aku bersyukur, atas pengalaman kerja di Bandung yang membuat aku menyadari kalau aku masih perlu banyak belajar. Bahwa aku tidaklah sepintar yang aku kira. Bahwa menerapkan suatu system membutuhkan kerja keras dan determinasi. Membuat aku berpikir ulang tentang tujuan hidup ku. Membuat aku keluar dari zona nyaman ku sehingga aku memiliki motivasi untuk berkembang.

Aku bersyukur masih bisa memiliki mimpi, yg tidak pudar meskipun pernah gagal di masa lalu. Bersyukur atas energy positif dan motivasi untuk senantiasa berjuang agar berhasil. Bagaimanapun nasibku ke kedepan, aku yakin bahwa Menyerah Bukanlah Pilihan. Semoga Allah SWT senantiasa memberikan yang terbaik.

Last but not least.. I am grateful that I am able to write again.

What are you grateful for?

A Moment of Reflection

I just realized something about me recently..

I realize I’ve been so caught up in my everyday problems that I simply forget to stop and take a good look at my life right now. I mean..

Hey.. Life is good, actually.

I’m healthy, I have a roof over my head, a stable job (however problematic it may seems).. A loving family, a beautiful city with clean air that I get to live in, a boss who is supportive, though sometimes gave me headaches..

In fact this afternoon, I get to see a real rainbow..just outside my room. How about that! I even took a picture of it.. I looked at it and just wowed.

Here..I’ll show you.

Great isn’t it? It looks better in reality, mind my poor photo-taking technique.

Anyway, I realized that this last few months I’ve been such a complainer. An egotistical one! I didn’t even realize I have that big of an ego. My ego it seems is SO BIG that I sweat and complaints on all the little stuff. Giving tantrum to all the people around me. The people I love got the most because they are around me most of the time. I even made Mom cry. I was such an idiot.

And for what? If I stop and stare at my life in this instance. Masya Allah.. God has given me so much.. And I always wants more.. more respect, more service, more politeness, more support, more love, more sensitivity, more..more..more for my Ego. Hell, I want to live in my dream world where everything is PERFECT the way I want them to be. There’s no way that will happen.

I forgot to just Be Grateful..

If I didn’t stop to take a look outside of my room window this afternoon, I wouldn’t have notice the rainbow soar beautifully to the blue sky. I wouldn’t have notice the gorgeous silhouette of mountains behind the sprawl of neighboring rooftops. I forgot how beautiful the scenery from my room here in Bandung. I forgot..

Sunset at my window. Notice the mountain silhouette at the back?

I forgot about all the little things that are beautiful, fulfilling, inspiring, enlightening that surrounded me. If only I focus my energy on those good stuffs instead of the bad, my life would’ve gotten even better.

You know.. Life is Perfect just the way it is..

Because Allah is Perfect with His plans..

My prayer to GOD before I go to sleep tonight is for forgiveness. Forgiveness for me and for everyone I cared about and let down.. And may God open their hearts to also forgive me for my mistakes.. I pray to Him, let me be a person who never let the gleam and troubles of the world blind her from the blessings she received.. to always be grateful for all the good and the bad. To always be in His light and His Mercy.. Amen.

“Every relationship is brought into our lives to teach you and to help you grow. Change is the nature of life, and ‘what was’ must pass away so that ‘what is’ has room to make your life brand new. When you become attached to a certain way of life, a part of you dies. To live fully and to BE fully alive cultivate a mind set of loving detachment and let life live you. When you do this, you will see the beauty in the small things, the fleeting nature of all life, and feel a deep sense of appreciation for everything in your life. Celebrate this new moment – whatever is may contain!”

To change I must first wholly accept the present moment.

This moment, as it is, is perfect.

(Mastin Kip)

Happy Belated Birthday Sesame Street!

The world celebrate Sesame Street’s 40th Birthday, on  Nov 4th 2009, and frankly that evoked so many good memories I have of my childhood. I looooooved Sesame Street..and I still do!

Sesame Street is my first introduction to English. Back then, I watched Sesame Street on RCTI (Indonesian Channel) still in English language, with tiny subtitles below (unlike today’s re run which use dubbing). So I learned a lot about English words, pronunciation, and structure. I remember, I learned about the English words for colors, numbers, animals by watching the shows.. Imagine, how many 8 year old Indonesian child could know that the English for “Badak” is Rhinoceros? I even know how to spell it then. Thanks to watching a segment in the shows where they rimed “Rhinoceros” over and over again, while showing a picture of the animal.

Sesame Street got me interested about English and somehow learning that language is never difficult for me since.  I dare say that Sesame Street is the reason why I am good in English (without any intention to brag). That’s way I wish they will aired the original version again in Indonesian TV, so that Indonesian children can learned about that International Language early on.

Thanks to Uncle Google, I manage to dig up several clip that I really really really loved back then on when I was a little girl. It turns out there are hundreds of Sesame Street videos on YouTube. really made my day yesterday, watching those old video of Ernie, Bert, Big Bird, Cookie Monster, Kermit, Miss Piggy, Grover, Count Dracula, and what I love the most..Elmo!

So, to commemorate what I think as the BEST Children TV Shows ever, I want to share my best moments of Sesame Street.

Ernie Do De Rubber Duck

I watched this video of Ernie singing “Do De Rubber Duck” at elementary school and is stuck in my head since. Even now, 20 years later, I still remember the chores:

“And do de Duck, Rubber Duck Duck, Rubber Duck, Rubber Duck, Duck, Rubber Duck Duck, Rubber Duck Duck, Rubber Duck, Duck, Rubber Duck, Rubber Duck Duck, Rubber Duck, Rubber Duck Duck.”

(you can check it if you want..every single word fits). Watch it, it’s so great! 🙂

Near & Far with Grover

This is another funny video when Grover teaches the different between Near and Far.

Ernie & Bert, the Newspaper

The funniest character on Sesame Street I think is Ernie & Bert. How Ernie always annoys Bert is hilarious. This is one of the funniest clip when they were fighting about reading the newspaper.

Ernie Counting Sheep

If you are a Sesame Street fan too, you will remember that Ernie usually annoys Bert when they both tried to sleep at night, because Ernie usually had a hard time trying to fall asleep. This is the funniest and most famous clip of Ernie annoying Bert at sleep. Enjoy! 🙂

Those are some of my favorite moments on Sesame Street. If I had time, I will try to search for more clip of Elmo and Cookie Monster. Those two are my favorite character.

Until then, Cheers! 🙂

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