Why do I always wish for the impossible
Am I a heartbreak junkie?
But still.. seeing him smile. I can’t stop thinking it will all be worthwhile..
If only I could get him to smile like that..just for me..
Only for me..
They say if you see it as impossible it will be impossible.
But how can I dare to hope that an almost perfect guy will look upon this far from perfect girl with anything close to affection?
Friendship..we do have.. Even brotherly love I believe he already felt for me..
But love.. I can’t say that he will..
How do I even dare to let this feeling grow.
When this seems like another path destined for heartbreak.
Why can’t I just let it go and feel “safe” again..
I think it’s my nature to always want to give it a go..
However small the chances are..
Either that or I’m just plain old stupid. I don’t know..
All I know is that now I can’t stop thinking about him..
I want to see him again..soon.. (finger’s crossed).Diriku Pikiranku April 20th, 2009