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B.E. H.A.P.P.Y

Is it wrong in my age to just live in the moment and not think much about my future.. Coz I kinda enjoy it.. *wink  🙂

It’s not like I plan this to happen, I don’t program my self to be like this.. I spent most of my age hating comfort zone and always looking far ahead to where I want to be in the next 10-20 years. That was me.

But today, I’m like really enjoy looking around and focus much on my surrounding, friends, hobbies, and really just be ME in the present tense.. And not thinking much about ME in the future tense. I don’t know when this transformation happened and I kinda felt guilty sometimes.. Being my analytical self, I started to have questions.. Is this normal? For a person to change so much? Is it OK if I continue like this? Is this just like my way to justify my lack of passion and achievements? Is it because I’m running away from my problems? Because I’m afraid to chase my dreams?

I still don’t know the answers to all those questions swirling in my mind.. Cause the answer changes every second I think of it..



Not really.

It’s not like that.

Is that true?

Is that really how I feel or how I should feel?


At the end, I still haven’t came to a conclusion.. So, I think for now I’ll keep it simple and just do what makes me Happy at this very moment.. If sleeping makes me Happy, I’ll sleep all day.. If spending time with friends and writing makes me Happy, I’ll spend time doing just that.. No plans at all.. But I still gonna make time to think about this questions at least once a week, until I find the answer.. And I’ll pray everyday for GOD to eventually show me the right path to His Good Grace..

For now, I just want to BE HAPPY!  Cheers! *grin 😀


Things I’m Grateful for in My Life

Aku bersyukur pada Allah  SWT telah diberi kesempatan hidup di dunia, terlahir Islam, rahmat hidayah saat aku akil baligh, kesempatan mempelajari Al Quran, keteladanan Nabi Muhammad SAW, kepintaran, kesehatan, fisik yg sempurna, keluarga yang mencintai ku, rizki yg halal, dan segala berkah yang telah diberikan seumur hidupku. Allah SWT telah memberiku kehidupan dengan modal yang sangat cukup untuk selamat dunia dan akhirat. Sekarang semua tergantung aku untuk memanfaatkan dengan sebaik-baiknya segala modal yang diberikan-Nya untuk dapat digunakan di jalan Allah dan mengejar ridho-Nya

Aku bersyukur atas keluarga yg sempurna, Papa, Mama, dan Adek, yang mencintaiku dengan segala cara, memenuhi kebutuhan jasmani dan rohani ku tanpa cela, memberiku kesempatan untuk belajar apapun yg aku mau, memberiku keamanan dan ketentraman, senantiasa membela & mendukung ku tanpa ragu.

Aku bersyukur atas sahabat sejati yg telah dikirimkan-Nya. Yang senantiasa menyediakan waktu untuk ku. Selalu ada untuk aku. Aku percaya sahabat sejati adalah juga jodoh yang diberikan Tuhan. Aku bersyukur aku memiliki 1 orang yg aku dapat sungguh-sungguh sebut sebagai sahabat. My best friend, you know who you are. I sincerely thank you. I will forever try to be the best friend you deserve.

Aku bersyukur untuk atap di atas kepala ku, kamar kosan yang nyaman, tempat tidur yg empuk dan selimut tebal untuk menghangatkan di malam hari apalagi saat hujan deras, segala peralatan elektronik yang lengkap, mobil perusahaan yg dipinjamkan kepadaku, buku sebagai sarana ilmu, BB untuk berkomunikasi dan alat kerja, dan rumah keluarga yang senantiasa bisa menjadi tempat aku kembali apabila aku tidak mampu mandiri.

Aku bersyukur atas masa-masa SMP ku, tercebur di sekolah anak-anak borjuis Jakarta yang menilai orang lain hanya berdasarkan materi. Pengalaman tersebut, walaupun berat kala itu, menempa ku untuk menemukan jati diri ku, bahwa aku lebih dari sekedar seberapa banyak uang yang dimiliki orang tua ku, bahwa kepintaran dan semangat untuk melakukan yang terbaik adalah modal utama untuk bisa sukses di situasi seberat apapun. Berkat pengalaman itu, aku jadi percaya diri.

Aku bersyukur, atas pengalaman kerja di Bandung yang membuat aku menyadari kalau aku masih perlu banyak belajar. Bahwa aku tidaklah sepintar yang aku kira. Bahwa menerapkan suatu system membutuhkan kerja keras dan determinasi. Membuat aku berpikir ulang tentang tujuan hidup ku. Membuat aku keluar dari zona nyaman ku sehingga aku memiliki motivasi untuk berkembang.

Aku bersyukur masih bisa memiliki mimpi, yg tidak pudar meskipun pernah gagal di masa lalu. Bersyukur atas energy positif dan motivasi untuk senantiasa berjuang agar berhasil. Bagaimanapun nasibku ke kedepan, aku yakin bahwa Menyerah Bukanlah Pilihan. Semoga Allah SWT senantiasa memberikan yang terbaik.

Last but not least.. I am grateful that I am able to write again.

What are you grateful for?

Happiness starts with the simple things..

This is an old post of mine.. I re-publish it as a reminder for my self and my readers to take those small steps..  little by little build happiness from doing good deeds to others, however insignificant it may seems. And also, don’t forget to say thank you to anyone who lend a helping hand or give you help when you least expect it. From my observation, many people (especially in Jakarta) are ignorant to both acts..doing good deeds and saying “thank you” for receiving one.

Let’s start a new movement in this area, starting from ourselves!  Enjoy doing those little things!! 🙂


Sometimes..we dwell to much on the “big” things.. Like a broken heart.. a delay achievement of goals.. poor performance at work.. Those “big” things that we thought, if we get them right, our life will be perfect. We concentrate on them too much that we forgot the simple joy of doing little things in life.. good things.. Such as giving your seat on the bus to an old lady.. Smiling and saying “Hi!” to everybody at work.. Being polite and nice to people on the bus, those people that you don’t know..

Yesterday, I learned that doing those things.. (the things that people, especially in Jakarta, considered unimportant and unworthy of doing) can really made my day! It made me really ( and I do mean REALLY) happy! Growing up in Jakarta.. I learned to behave like the others.. I learned NOT to care.. to mind my own business.. You can not be nice if you want to survive.. You have to be tough! To kick and elbow your way into a bus to get a seat.. even if it means you’ll stepped on somebody else’s feet or you’ll let an elderly stand all through the trip.. Cause everyone else DOES IT! You have to learn and keep up! Yesterday, a bit of conscious triggered me.. Made me act differently.. And it felt so good!I learned that I can choose, whether or not I’ll behave like others.. I don’t give a damn if everybody’s being rude.. I don’t think it’s good. I won’t do it anymore.. And believe it or not, there are still people in Jakarta who valued it (even though you must prepare yourself for those who wouldn’t thank you for your good deeds, coz they just don’t think it was important).

You don’t always need BIG things to happen to make you happy.. Give good deeds everyday, no matter how little it is or how unimportant it may seems.. Those little things can really brighten up your day! Cheers! 🙂

-Diriku Pikiranku-


I finally get my dream..

Laying down on the quiet beach..

Looking up to the sky..

Breathing the warm sea breeze..

Listening to the sound of the waves crashing to the shore..

Even the sky seems to cooperate.. It’s cloudy surface protecting us from the harsh rays of the sun..

Here I lay.. on a secluded beach near Tanjung Layar, Sawarna. Surrounded by friends, half of them are previously strangers that I met at the beginning of this trip. Yet, here we are, just 18 hours after, already developing a friendship, bonded by mutual passion in traveling and enjoying all the beauty the nature has to offer. My travel mates, I called them. Hanging out and just having a great time!

As I rest my head on the sand overlooking the breathtaking ocean.. Reflecting my first 18-hours-experience from this whole 4 days trip to Sawarna Beach and Ujung Kulon.. I can not help but wonder..

WOW! What a GREAT way to meet new friends..

lompatPictures taken by Faisal Reza

Here comes the Sun

I have a new hobby recently.

I develop a habit of waking up in the early morning, before the sun rise.

I know to some people it’s just an ordinary thing to do.. Especially for Muslims, because we usually wake up at Subuh to pray. But until now, I always consider myself NOT a morning person. I usually wake up late and go to sleep well after midnight which is why I’m more productive at night.

But after doing it for a while, I found that morning is not bad after all. I enjoy staying awake after Subuh, drinking hot coffee, sitting in front of the laptop, preparing and planning my duties of the day. Watching the sun rise.. Breathing the fresh air.. Shivering in the morning chill..

Aaahhhh… what a life. 🙂

(curahan hati seorang mantan pemalas..hehe)

In Search of A Meaningful Life..

26 years alive and counting..

Days go by.. minute after minute pass with little meaning.. without realizing it, I came to an age when I should’ve had the experience and knowledge, could’ve done something about it.. and yet.. here I am now, still looking and unsure of what I want to do with my life..

Is it normal for my age to still not know about which road to take? which job to choose? which role to play in the society? I still felt out of place. Not able to maximize my potential and yet don’t know how to do it best! It sucks when you know you’re in the wrong place but don’t have a clue where the right place is.

They said that life is a long journey.. you are more likely to take some wrong turns before you end up in the right place. The better you learn from your mistake, the fastest you get to your destination. But what if I’m not sure which way to go?

Only one thing I know for sure right now. It’s that I want to have a meaningful live. A very general dream, huh? General dreams can mean a flexibility in ways of implementing it and making it come true.. but, it can also means I lack of clear direction, unsure, or in other words clueless! I think in my case, the latter is more appropriate. Hiks..

In my confusion, I became de-motivated at work, unfocussed in my career choice, and even worse, putting a distance with GOD. I can’t go on like this. I have to work this out.. I have to figure out what’s important and what I want to do with the rest of my life.

26 years alive and counting..

Still trying to comprehend everything.. hopefully, I can work it out..